This week was hectic to say the least. I’m in the middle of an adventure—the details of which I’m not yet ready to share—and it’s been challenging.
I had to make a decision and the specialists advising me took position on opposite sides of the spectrum.
One said “It’s impertinent to ask that question—it’s none of their business. You don’t need to tell them anything and you can just go through the process.” Which was absolutely true and well within my rights.
The other person said “Why don’t you go with full disclosure and let the chips fall where they may.”
I felt caught between a rock and a hard place. They both had a point and valid reasoning.
Sometimes there’s just no really wrong answer.
So I called my mom and she said “You’re always good at feeling what’s the right thing. What are you feeling?”
My answer?
“I have trouble feeling right now.”
As I said that I realized I wasn’t grounded. I was under a lot of pressure. I had literally ten minutes to make a decision and it was a choice with potentially very large consequences.
Really relaxed to have to decide all that within such a short time period. Ahum.
Knowing I had to ground immediately helped shift my focus to my body, and fortunately I have enough experience with grounding that I felt the effects straight away.
As soon as I was more balanced I realized this is not one of those things you do no matter the cost.
What it really came down to was “What kind of person do I want to be?”
- Do I choose to play by the rules and leave it at that?
- Or do I opt to go beyond what’s needed and do what’s right for everyone, even though I know it will lead to a less favorable result for me?
I decided to go with option two and gave full disclosure.
And I chose to TRUST that no matter the result, it would be in my highest good. I opted to do what I would have preferred someone else had done in the same situation.
As I suspected my choice did mean the end of this particular adventure, but I have faith there is something even better in store for me.
I wanted to share this story because it was important for me personally but also to show that none of us have it all figured out.
And though I am a pro at grounding and listening to my intuition, when things get really difficult I need to make more of an effort, too. It’s not something you can do once and be done with. It requires continual growth and evolvement.
Especially when you are attached to the outcome and there is a lot of (time) pressure to make a decision, it can be difficult to stay in touch with your inner wisdom.
I had to work hard at staying aligned and connected and in this case even grounded. I was rolling from phone call to phone call, people telling me I had to decide right now. And I am so glad I took that extra ten minutes to get really clear on what was the right decision for me.
It helped to hit the pause button and regroup.
This was a growth opportunity. A chance to get more clear on the kind of person I want to be, and to act accordingly—even when that means letting go.
Here’s to more growth for all of us!
May we be the best people we can be 🙂
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